Don't listen to the voice that tells you to give up!

These past 3 months going on four months I have wanted to give up a lot. I have literally wished I were dead multiple times. I had thoughts of wanting to end my life several times these past few  months. But... I fear death so I would never actually end my own life. The thought of actually dying scares me. Sometimes I actually think my fear of dying prevents me from living because I always want to play it safe. But every time I would have these thoughts of wanting to give in and give up on everything a voice inside of me tells me not to give up to keep going. Something inside of me doesn't want me to give up and wont let me give up.  

 

Then this might sound crazy but then I keep hearing this other voice or sometimes it's not a voice but just a feeling that someone is saying or thinking these thoughts, "Kelly, I love you so much, don't you know how much I love you, don't you feel how much I love you, don't you feel my love, I love you!!!" I am actually hearing/feeling it right now saying, "I love you, Kelly!" I don't know where these feelings or inner voice is coming from. Is it me telling myself that? Sometimes I don't feel like I love myself, sometimes I even hate myself... so I don't know where that voice or feeling is coming from but it is a nice thought/feeling. I just wish it were a real person that was really saying it to me and truly meant/felt that way toward me and truly loved me - other than family members and pets.

 

But no matter how much I have seemed to want to give up these past few months something keeps me going, something keeps me fighting, something inside of me just wont let me give up.

 

The point of this blog post is that no matter how bad you feel your life is, no matter how much you feel like giving up or how others  have treated/hurt you makes you feel like giving up on yourself, don't give in, don't give up. Don't give up on yourself, don't give up on your goals and life aspirations. Yes, life is hard, making your dreams/goals come true can be very difficult but wont that hard work be worth it when you accomplish those goals. So don't listen to the voice that tells you to give up. Ignore that voice, tell it to shut up and keep pushing forward. If your progress is slow keep moving forward, slow progress is still progress; it is better than none at all. So don't give up on yourself or life, keep trying!!!!

 Determination

 

 

 Don't give up you can do this...

Don't stop...

 Keep trying...